I've always said that my ota's presence is always 'one step ahead of me' in the storyline or something.

Well.

I'm letting go, nearly totally, of the past. I may have been that way, I may have at one time existed as my ota's personality.

Who made me let go? Sarah did.

And it's sad, a part of me isn't dying, but fading away into a little dot.

I'm Samantha, a 16 year old girl who wants to be a concept artist or medical illustrator when I get older. I enjoy art and the paranormal, and love designing animals. I am pansexual and 'transgender', and I have connections to a fictional character. Despite those connections, I have to live every day in the present.

Who knows? I might not even have been him at one time, I highly highly doubt that's really 'true' but it might be.

Sometimes I think her presence and the presence of my past controls me like a puppet.
Not anymore.

I'm risen again from the ashes like a phoenix, my past isn't forgotten but it's going to not matter as much in my daily life.



So this journal will become inactive for a while as I live in the present, as Samantha.
I have my own dreams.

This entry is public, I want everyone to know I'm basically over myself.








Sarah, thank you. I feel like you liberated me.

What are these other worlds like? Can we travel? Do they explain UFOs or the mysterious disappearances in the Bermuda Triangle? Alas for the ufologist, the Everett theory is explicit on this point. The parallel worlds, once disconnected, are physically isolated for all practical purposes. To reunite them would require reversing a measurement, which amounts to reversing time. It would be rather like reconstituting a broken egg, atom by atom.
-Taken from God and the New Physics.

What does this mean for us? Now, I don't take any author's word as true and utter fact, I don't believe everything I hear. It first hit me "Does this prove that all Otherkin don't exist?".

I thought about it. And then I came to this conclusion.

Physically isolated. What does physically mean?

phys‧i‧cal  /ˈfɪzɪkəl/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[fiz-i-kuhl] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–adjective
1. of or pertaining to the body: physical exercise.
2. of or pertaining to that which is material: the physical universe; the physical sciences.
3. noting or pertaining to the properties of matter and energy other than those peculiar to living matter.
4. pertaining to the physical sciences, esp. physics.
5. carnal; sexual: a physical attraction.
6. tending to touch, hug, pat, etc.; physically demonstrative: a physical person.
7. requiring, characterized by, or liking rough physical contact or strenuous physical activity: Football is a physical sport.

The mind, consciousness, in my philosophy, isn't something that is physical. Scientists still cannot point where consciousness originates from. Some say it comes directly from the brain, but some say the brain only is like a radio receiver, and consciousness is the radio waves. Worlds aren't colliding, there are no giant monkeys from another dimension in the trees. Or not to my knowledge, anyway.

Thankfully the ISS comes AGAIN to provide good information that I can understand. I'm looking for some articles that say it does come chiefly from the neurons, too.


http://www.survivalafterdeath.org/articles/carter/consciousness.htm
http://www.survivalafterdeath.org/articles/hart/consciousness.htm

Though both the information in these articles is old, to my knowledge it's not outdated, and still golden.

tonight i'm too tired to give it too much thought. I'll look for more information on both views tomorrow.

Weeding out stupid quiz results and meaningless posts.

I've been gone for a long time, a really long time actually.
Or it feels like that. I haven't posted because I've been busy with things..

Looks like I'm not too busy anymore.

The latest thing has been that I've gotten very close to telling my best friend about my issues that I hold so dear. And suprsingly, she accepted everything I was saying.


Except that I didn't flat out admit to anything.

That and I started smoking pot. xD
Hell, I'm a teenager, it's allowed.


That will be all, lovlies.

I've returned.

RUN PEOPLE RUN.